The Way I have Been Feeling Lately

 

Lately, I have been really looking at my life with a different flare.  It started back when our Saturday morning group was reading “Captivating”.  My heart and soul started to look at Jesus in such a different way.   I started to look at Jesus as my bridegroom instead of my Father.  During that time, I did see a difference in the way that I viewed my Dad and husband.  I needed to ask for forgiveness and I wanted to treat them different.  I do see the closeness with both my Dad and Jeff so differently than I had even seen before.  Then our Saturday group started to do the book “Breaking Free.”  I have felt freedom and intimacy in Christ than I have ever felt before.  I am seeing the verses of my bible with new eyes and heart.  I do not feel chained down or guilty for the decisions that I make.  Yes, there is still things in my life that need to be let go to Him, but I am more willing to let them go.  I am seeing my relationship with my children in a different way.  I am freely loving them and letting go of them.  I realize that I need to pray for them more and let them have independence more.  They need to make decisions about their walk with God.  Jeff and I just give them the information.  I am feeling free and loved.  I remember always wanting to feel that way, I tried to get that feeling out of my mother.  She was so focused on herself and finder her own way, that she could not of done that for me.  Personal I believe it was not up to my mother or husband or anyone to make me feel free or happy.  It is my relationship with my dear Jesus, this will do all.  He wants to love me and He wants me to love Him.  Now I am reading this book called “Who calls me Beautiful?”  I am amazed by what Regina is saying about the ins and outs of what we see and feel about our beauty.  I am realizing that God is the only one who needs to determine my beauty.  He created me and therefore, He wants to admire His master piece.  He wants the intimacy with me, and He definitely does not want me down grading myself.   I want to share this with my daughter, I want her to look at God and feel her Beauty.  She needs to go to Him and let Him give her peace, joy, love, mercy and grace.  I have also felt so good, I am healed and I have energy that I have not had in some time.  Only God could do that for me,  He used a wonderful doctor and timing to heal my body.  I am blessed and I have looked at life so differently.  The flowers are beautiful and they smell wonderful.  The sky is more blue than I remember and my love for my Jesus is so deep, I do not want to leave His side, I am basking under His wings.  I hope that you all search for this, it is Heaven on earth.  God bless all of you,  Love Tanya

Dearest Jesus,  You are the reason I live, I thank you for not giving up on me.  I thank you for the body that you have provided for me.  I will not make it a temple that I adore or abuse, I will be a good steward of the body that you blessed me with.  I am so blessed by the creation of your world, thank you for providing all my needs and the things that you feel I need.  Thank you for the dear people reading this post.  I pray that you open their hearts and minds to your glory.  I love you so much and I want to be the person you deamed me to be.  You are awesome, I lift up all of my blogger friends and I pray that you heal the physically, mentally and emotionally.  I believe in your promises that you blessed me with.  Your word is true.  Amen

Summer in Red Oak

Last week, Jeff and I went on a walk. We vered around a corner and seen this desk. We laughed so hard. I think that it is an awesome idea. Do not know what to do with that old desk and computer, put it in your yard and plant flowers in them. Sure saves on planters.

“If you need me, I will be in my office.”

 

Red Oak is so beautiful in the spring and the summer. I love it when the fountain is running and all those beautiful lamp post have flowers all over it.

The Gazeebo and the stage are all surrounded by shrubs and beautiful flowers. The Talent Show was on the stage on Saturday. This park was full of people on Saturday, I thought it was a beautiful turn out. Junction Days is a big event in Red Oak. Our next event is the Fair, that is this month.

Well, I hope that you liked the tour of our Town’s square, if you need me I will be in my office returning phone calls. Talk to all of ya later, call me. Love Tanya

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Junction Day

 

Yesterday, My mother in law, my daughter and I went to the annual Junction days parade and carnival.  The parade was awesome and there were so many floats and bands etc.  I think the parade was over an hour.  Then we took my daughter down to the square and she played on the equipment that was set up and we had lunch.  We watched the Southwest Iowa cheerleaders and a talent show and viewed all of the flea market.  We had a blast, of course I got sunburned and so did my daughter.  As my mother in law and I sat watching the people go by, I started to reminisce about past Junction days.  The first one was in 1991, I was five months pregnant with out son and Jeff’s sister just had her second child.  I remember thinking how quaint this town was,  I was also trying to settle in, because in six months Jeff and I would be back to settle in town.  Through the years, I have watched all of my nieces and nephew grow up and not they no longer live here in town.  Our son was working and he was not able to go.  I started to feel weepy as all the family has grown up and soon they will all be starting their paths through life as adults.  I tell you, you must spend the time now with your children.  For you will blink your eyes and your children will be grown.  I am blessed to be able to spend the time with my children and Jeff’s family.  I do miss my parents and the events that we did as a child.  I grew up in Everett, Washington and we did Salty Seas days.  I even marched in the parade a few times.  But, I now have to live for my children,  I am blessed to live in a small town, and I know that God has blessed me so much.  God bless all of you who are raising warriors and maidens.  And all of you who are enjoying the next generation of warriors and maidens.  Have a wonderful summer, Love Tanya

Random Thoughts

I have to admit that I have a fetish, it is Meerkats.  I love to watch Meerkat Manor on Friday nights.  Last year my daughter and I spent the whole year watching the series.  We cried at the end of the year when Flower, Mozart and Carlos died.  Last month they had a movie about Flower and I remember thinking what an awesome leader Flower was.  She was the only Meerkat that held the position of leader for four years and she was a true leader.  I love animals, but by far the Meerkat is my favorite. 

I have to admit that sometimes I wish that I had an attitude of the Meerkat, they have a schedule, they feed the family and the family has to stay together.  I have been thinking about family lately.  Not  the family I have, but the future family, the spouses of my children.  Are they going to know the Lord like we do?  Are they going to know how to respect their elders?  Will my daughters husband take care of her, or even so, will our son take care of his wife.  I am three years from our son graduating, and some of the choices I see him make now with friends, well it darn right scares the what ever out of me.  Oh dear Lord, help me to keep sain.  I feel like pulling out hair.  That is it isn’t it, I need to be in prayer and just keep teaching the kids of Jesus.  I will find peace and I will be the person God wants me to be for the kids.  I will support them and I will encourage them.  I know all the right answers, but applying it is another thing.   

I also wonder, am I the mother that  Jesus wants me to be?  Honestly, this post is not to upset or sound depressing.  But really, don’t all parents go through this.  I mean if someone gave you a vase to hold and then told you it cost billions of dollars, wouldn’t you adjust the way you stood to hold it for sometime?  I would, if I lock my knees I am done and so is the vase.  As parents shouldn’t we do the same.  I am just adjusting the way I stand to support the kids God gave me.  I do want to be the parent that God has chosen me to be.  But, I think that it is okay to question, that is how we can hear ourselves.   I love my kids and I love my husband.  I know that God loves me and that He has given me the plans to do it.  I just want to talk it out.  I feel better, I am blessed and God is in control.  But, if you go through this randomness, leave a comment and lets chat.  I love ideas, and of course encouragement.  Check out Meerkat Manor on Animal Planet on Friday nights.  They are so cute.  Love Tanya 

 

 

Should I follow this or that?

1 John 3:19-20″And herby we know that we are of the truth, and shall assure our hearts before him.  For if our heart condemn us, God is greater than our heart, and knoweth all things.

1 John 4:16″And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us.  God is love;  and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God,  and God in him.”

Ephesians 1:17″That the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give unto you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of him:”

Last night I was doing the rest of chapter 8 of “Breaking Free” when I came across the two 1 John verses.  They really struck a cord in my heart.  I have a tendency to be a follower, and when someone says something, I follow it.  Lately, I have been following Jesus and really wanting to grow with Him.  So, when I was hit with this, it blew me away and I started thinking.

When someone says something, for example, “I believe it is God’s will for us to eat honey all the time, and if you do not eat honey, you will have to answer for it.”  Okay this is where I start to throw down my own thinking and follow the advice.  Not this time,  because I was so into Jesus, I stopped and started questioning, “Where does it say that in the bible?”  And will I have to answer Jesus, if I do not eat honey all the time?

My answer is “NO.”  From what I read in 1 John, I see that Jesus knows my heart.  He does not want me condemning myself over weather or not I eat honey.  He loves me and He is in me.  He will show me what He wants to change in me, someone else can not do that for me.

Jeremiah 29:11 states, “For I know the thoughts that I think towards you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.”  God knows our heart and thoughts.  We are all His children, but each one of us has a different calling.  If I placed sugar or not so good sweets above God, I could see Him telling me to change my eating habits and find something natural.  In this case, I still haven’t felt lead to do so. 

Ephesians sums it up, He gave us a spirit of wisdom and revelation.  When Solomon was king, God granted him one thing,  Solomon chose wisdom.  We can have it also, just ask.  I am not saying we will not be judged, yes we will.  Also, if you feel lead to eat honey, then that is the conviction for your life.  That does not mean I have the same conviction.  God dwells in me and I in Him,  I would know if it was for me. 

All I can say is this, if you are confronted with something another christian said, look it up in the bible.  If it is black and white and God’s truth, do it.  If it is not pray about it.  Does God want me to eat honey,  if I feel a conviction about it, than I will do it.  Follow the spirit that fills your heart, read the scriptures and pray. 

I am going to be a follower of God,  Love Tanya

Why do I Blog?

First of all, I need to confess a few things.  I stopped blogging because I started becoming competitive.  I was putting out blogs everyday to compete with other blogs, wanting the comments and the popularity. I also, stopped because I felt God was asking me too.  I really had been praying about this for a month.  Then I had two incidents that really cause me to think.  I really did step back and I spent however long or short, praying about it and asking God, His view points. 

So, here is why I blog.  First of all, I love to write in journals.  I have had an active journal since I was fourteen.  I love to write and express my feeling in my words.  I am not so good at talking,  but I love to write.  Secondly,  I love to write to my Jesus, He has comforted me in trials, life and our walk together.  I have been so blessed by God and I want to express to Him how grateful I am to Him in my writing.  I also want to share this with others.  I may come across as aggressive or pressured,  most of the time I share it, but it is actually something God has me looking at for my life.  I just hope that others can relate to what I am saying.  Thirdly, I will not be blogging everyday.  I will be blogging when I feel lead by God or I have something awesome to share.  I will try to blog on my other one www.wilderness-shiloh.blogspot.com, this is my homeschool blog. 

I want anyone who visits my blog to really enjoy being here.  I do not want to force anything on anyone.   I am here only as a person who loves Jesus, I share my feelings and I bear my soul.  I do not want anyone to feel that they have to comment everytime they are on this blog.  I want you to enjoy the journey, God has me on.  God bless all of you who visit this blog and I will pray for the people who see this or surf the net.  Love Tanya

Wow!!! That is all I can say.

I was not going to post till August.  I just had to tell of the good news that I heard today.  I had an appointment with my doctor.  He was shocked that I lost seventeen pounds and that I looked really good.  He said that today was my last appointment till February of 2009!   He took blood and when it comes back, if the numbers are up, I will not have to take iron or folic acid till forever.  I am healed and it is all due to God and the knowledge of Dr. Wyatt.  I feel so great. 

For two years, I have been this women above.  Tired, drained, I couldn’t even stand for to long without feeling like I could pass out.  I was uncomfortable and irratable.  I reached out to the hem of His garment and let Him heal me.  I threw up my hands and said, what do I do, I am your servant and I cast my burdens on you.  He did it, He showed me a different doctor and He then healed me,  even quicker than I can even imagine.  I will never place my pride (in Health) above Him again.  Dr did say that it will still be about six month for my hair to quit falling out,  but I am there with everything else.   I thought that all of you would like to know.  Love Tanya

Jeff Has Posted

For thos of you have been waiting, Jeff has posted on his blog.  If you would like to go and check it out, here it is www.thatoneguysblogstuff.blogspot.com .  It is a really great post.  Talk to all of you later.  Tanya

Free Rice

I know that I was not going to post.  But this is really important and will not take alot of your time.  And for all you that homeschool, this is awesome for your students.  www.freerice.com,  go there and play the vocabulary game.  For each right word, this website will donate 20 grains of rice.  You pay nothing and you get to do something for someone else.  I had a blast.  You can play as long as you want.  So, I am now going on my vacation with Jesus.  We are having a blast and I can not wait to share with you all that I have learned. Signing off, love Tanya

taking time off

I am going to take the summer off.  So, I will not be posting the rest of this summer.  I feel that I need to take time to really become one with my Jesus.  I am on a short journey with Him.  I will try to pick this back up in August.  I hope that all of you have a wonderful summer.  Love Tanya

Many Generations

 ”And he brought him forth abroad, and said, Look now towards heaven, and tell the stars. if thou be able to number them:  and he said unto him, so shall thy seed be.  And he believed in the Lord;  and he counted it to him for righteousness.”  Genesis 15:5-6

When God came to Abram, he did not have any children to call his own.  But, Abram believed in God and knew that he would provide children for them.  Then God tells Abram, not only will I provide you with family, but their will be so many that you will not be able to count them.  Wow, I think of this often.  How many children will God provide for us,  and how many grand children will we be blessed with?  I think that the most important thing lately on my heart has been, will my children and grandchildren carry on the love of the Lord?  Will my husband and I be profitable towards our walks and love for Jesus to be effective for our children. 

Jeff and I have explained to the kids that our relationship with God is not their relationship.  They have to build a relationship with Jesus for themselves.  It is really important that the legacy of Jesus will be carried on to future generations.  This is how the seed of Abraham was spread and multiplied.  The Israelites loved the Lord, and so the Lord took care of them and sent someone to set them free from bondage.  This is what we need to train our children to do, so they can save others from the bondage of sin.  The generations are going to need the love of Jesus to survive the end times or even just the world. 

Dear God, 

Please use Jeff and I to tell our children about you.  They need to have a relationship with you and spread it to everyone they know.  You are awesome God and we love you with all of our heart and soul.  I pray for our children, grandchildren and great grandchildren, that they will carry on your name and be “cities on a hill.”  That what ever generation curses have followed Jeff and I into our relationship with you,  will be banished and gone.  That they will not carry on and our generations will be on fire for you.  We love you so much, Amen

Any one out there?

 

     A dear friend of mine did a post trying to connect with some of the people who visits here blog, but does not comment.  I was really intriged with some of the people who commented.  So, I would like to do the same.  If you have come to my blog and you have not commented, I would love to hear from you.  Or if you are not comfortable commenting,  my e-mail is rosstanya@hotmail.com.  I would love to hear from you and hear your views on life, Jesus, or family.  God bless you, from Tanya

I am just a vessel

For a few years now, I have been volunteering at the local Pregnancy Center.  I started out on the board and then prayed about where God wanted to use me.  I felt lead to become a councilor.   I took over on Tuesday nights as the teacher to an ongoing Parenting Class.  We would go over subject matter that needed to be addressed by young women and men who did not know how or needed extra help parenting. 

One night two years ago, a couple came in Mary and Ted.  This couple was not married and she was much older than him.  She had an adult son and they had recently had a little girl named Carey.  About a month after the couple had Carey, they lost her because of drugs.  They were ordered by their human services director to attend my classes.  So, here we were, facing some harsh reality.  Not to mention I was faced with some conflict on how I could help them. 

I started by asking them what they needed to do to get their daughter back.  I have to tell you I was not to sure about them at that time.  I tried not to judge them and realized I needed to be a help.  They dug in and started to work, I had felt a couple of times that they did not seem to be interested in the classes.  After I think it was a year, Mary came to me wanting a pregnancy test.  We did one and it came up negative, so she went to her doctor and had some other test done and found out she was pregnant. 

When she told me, I made her realize that she could loose this one also.  She did not seem to take my advice.   I think it was a couple of weekends after this that this couple was at a party and faced with drugs.  Both of them did try one hit and realized what they were doing.  They got up and left the party,  when the week started they did tell their sponsors and human services.  When they got to the class on Tuesday, they told me,  I had already had a worry that this was going to happen.  I did lower the boom on them and I think they were both surprised by my attitude towards the situation. 

Months passed and they were working so hard to get it together.  One night I talked about regret.  The mere mention of the word regret caused Mary to cry.  I believe God took me there for a reason.  I reassured Mary and I told her to use regret to change, not to stay and feel pity for herself.  I tell you,  after that conversation, Ted and Mary were never the same.  The changes that they made were incredible.  They had their small child, another little girl name Stephanie. 

During all of this, Mary and Ted were still going to court to get their little girl,  Mary told me one night that she just wanted her girl and she thought that she would not get that chance.  I reasurred her that she would get her daughter back. 

So, now I come to two weeks ago and why I believe God used me as a vessel.  While doing this bible study, Breaking Free, I realized that my prayer life has been stagnate.  I have been praying for the center and how God can use me.  Mary asked me to write a letter for her court case for the next week.  I told her that I would and honestly walked out of the center and forgot.  On Monday of the next week, I remembered to write this letter.  I got on my computer, typed out a letter, printed it out and took it to Mary.  I do not know what I wrote, I did not check for spelling errors, I just gave it to her.

On Tuesday, I was sitting in the confrence room at the center when Ted and Mary came in.  Ted came in first with Stephanie, then Mary and trailing behind her was this little girl.  This little girl came in and walked right up to me and sat in my lap,  she looked at me and said “Hi.”  I looked at Mary and she said this is Carey, we got her back.  I was so astonished, I couldn’t believe it.

Then Mary said, “The judge almost didn’t give her back, until he read your letter, then he decided to give her back.” 

God used me as a vessel,  I did not even realize it until she said what she said.  My prayer life has been great with  God and I want to be used as a vessel more and more.  I want to plant seeds, even if I never see the harvest.  I love you Lord, and thank you for helping Ted and Mary.  Love Tanya

*Names have been changed to protect the family

Our Basement and Red Oak

These pumps are around town pumping out the man holes. 

This is the Merchentile in town.  All of this equipment is underwater.  They are located on Oak St.  close to the river. 

 

 

 This is the river on Coolbaugh St.  It is now above the banks.  It did this after I had gone over the bridge this morning taking Jeff to work.  So, it became higher. 

 

 This is Ivan Smith’s property by the river.  It is located on Coolbaugh St.  The Corn field is under water.

 

Look to what we woke up to this morning.  The whole basement is full of water.  It comes up to my ankle.  I stood at the bottoms of my stairs and just cried.  Earlier, Jeff and I were woke up by hail slaming our bedroom window and the winds blowing so hard.  I turned on the radio and they had calculated that the wind at the moment was 100 miles per hour.  I was just praying for that brick wall of protection.  So, we are fine, they are forcasting more storms tonight and it suppose to get warm.  The river is over the banks and the city is pumping out all of the man holes.  It is so amazing, the firecness of the storms and the power of God.  I realize that God is always with us and He will protect us.  Luke was just down stairs and all the water is gone.  We have a big mess to clean up, but at least it is all gone.

The Jelly Bean Prayer

 

Jelly Bean Prayer

Red is for the blood He gave,

Green is for the grass He made,

Yellow is for the sun so bright,

Orange is for the edge of night.

Black is for the sins that were made.

White is for the grace He gave,

Purple is for the hour of sorrow,

Pink is for the new tomorrow.

Give a bag full of jelly beans,

Colorful and sweet,

Tell them it’s a Prayer,

It’s a promise,

It’s a treat.

This is a prayer that I found on this site http://www.prayer-and-prayers.info/.  This site has wonderful prayer for children and adults.  This is actually a Easter poem.  I took out the Easter at the bottom, because, it would be a wonderful evangelist tool. 

Alphabet Prayer

I am going to try to do a series of different prayers.  This first prayer is the Alphabet prayer.  You can set it up any way you want it.  I choose to use it as a giving thanks prayer.  So, here I go.

Thank you Lord for:

     A-Always being with me, even when I feel along.

     B-Your blessings

     C-Creating me and caring for me.

     D-Divine nature

     E-Eternity

     F-Being with you forever and your forgiveness

     G-Your Grace

     H- Your holiness and Holy Spirit

     I- Being the great “I AM”

     J-Your son, Jesus and the joy I feel

     K-Your Kingdom

     L-Loving me even though I am a sinner

     M-the moments I have with Jesus

     N-The name above all names

     O- onmiscent, omnipresent, and omnipotent

     P-giving me peace

     Q-The quiet memonts I have to reflect and respont to your word

     R-Rest, respect and responsibility.

     T-Your truth

       S-Saved, Savior

     U-Understanding

     V-victory

     W-Your ways

     X-xtreme love

     Y-yewshua

     Z-For giving me zeal for you!!!

You can write this down, or you can get in the habit of saying a prayer like this, when you are in meditation or prayer with God.  It has really helped me focus on God.  I hope that you have enjoyed this.  Love Tanya

Where two or more are gathered

 

       I am reading Nehemiah, I started the book and then I went back and I am reading it very slowly and praying over it.  I have realized that Nehemiah was a Godly leader.  I believe that he was a Godly leader for a couple of reasons.  He prayed without ceasing, 1 thess 5:17. Then I belive that the second reason is that Nehemiah honored God and united the people.

In my bible, there is a little interlude to the start of the first chapter, I was really taken by it.  Here is what it says: “Seemingly impossiable tasks can be accomplished when God is helping those who honor him and when their efforts are united.”

I really looked at this, I molded it over in my mind, I prayed on it.  Here is what I seen.  If you have an impossible task that lies before you,  God will help those who honor Him and unite their efforts.  I thought of uniting in prayer.  There is several passages that talk about several who come to gether in prayer. 

“Two are better than one;  because they have a good reward for their labour, Forif they fall, the one will lift up his fellow; but woe to him that is alone whe he falleth; for he hath not another to help him up.”              Ecc 4:9-10

“For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.” Matthew 18:20

I know that there are other passages, but the point being, Jerusalem’s wall would not even have been repaired if it had not been for a cup bearer with passion for his city.  And then relying on the Lord to fill all the supplies and give him the green light to go.  Then when he gets to the city, the people united, even through fear, to get a job done. 

People it take all of us to do the will of our Father.  We have to stop bickering between us, and unite in prayer.  Get our passion back and the tasks need to be accomplished with honor of Him, our Lord Jesus.  I really did not give prayer as much attention as I should have. I have seen some awesome things in the last week or two, because I have gone to my Father.  I have had small conversations with Him all day long, and I have taken my friends into prayer about anything more often now, then I ever did before.  God is so wonderful and more than ever, He wants to commune with me.  I want that also, I want to see His heart and His love for me. 

Tomorrow, I am going to start doing different prayers.  I want to share them with you.  I know that some of you will already of know these.  But, they are wonderful reminders of How to praise our Father. 

Dearest Lord Jesus,  Thank you so much for the air I breath every second of my life.  Thank you for the sight that I have, to see your creation.  Thank you  for the ears that I have, to hear the small children laugh, or the beautiful birds sing in the morning.  Thank you for the touch that I have, to be able to feel things and enjoy the softness of pedals, or silk.  Thank you for my nose, to be able to smell the flowers in bloom or the food cooking on the grill.  Thank you God for my taste buds, to be able to taste the food that you created, to norish my body and keep it in good health.  And most of all thank you for showing me the emotions that you planted in me, to cry when I need to, to have Godly love for others, to be mad at something that drives my heart, to care for the little children that you have provided for me.  I love you Lord, and I  never want to be ungrateful, but always loving you with Thanksgiving and worship in my heart.  I love you forever and ever, amen

 

What is your soul filled with?

This morning we had our Saturday Morning Group.  We watch a video and then we kind of talk about the lessons that we do during the week.  Well, this mornings video really spoke to me.  Beth Moore was talking about the Samaritian women at the well.  Jesus told her about the living water and if she drinks from it, she will not thirst any more, John 4:1-26.  Our soul wants something, so we start thirsting for worldly things like fancy cars, an awesome home, money, sex, food etc….  But if we go to God, he will fill us with the living water and our soul will be full of God and we will not thirst anymore. 

Beth did a demonstration with two vases, both of them empty.  She started filling the one with cheetos, money, a little hot wheels car, a fabric swag for clothing, bullentins from ministries etc.  The vase still had gaps in it.  The items did not fill the vase.  Then she filled the other one up with water.  It totally filled it up and there was no gaps at all in it.  I was so moved that I had tried to fill my soul with junk and food.  I realized that none of those things made me happy and I still was trying to fill up my self to reach satisfaction.  All I have to do it go to God and let Him fill me up.  I do not need all the food or money or anything else.  I desire to be filled with the Holy Spirit and stop looking for material things to fill me.  It was such an awesome revelation for me.  I watched my mother look for thing to fulfill her life.  She never found it, because the only one who can fill us is Jesus. 

He knows the traps that we form for ourselves and all He wants from us is to tell Him.  He wants us to dialogue openly with Him and just tell Him that we are struggling.  John 4:39-41, Ps 62:5-8.

We need to daily seek the word and be filled with the Holy Spirit.  We need to dialoge with God, we need to stop blaming others and start taking responsibilty for our own actions and we need to be like children, coming before our God with humbleness. 

The Cardinal and the Guitar

The other day Jeff and Luke were playing their guitars.  Jeff was trying out the distortion foot pedal that Luke bought.  We had the window opened because it was a really awesome day.  As Jeff was jam-in on his electric guitar, I could hear some really loud chirping.  I thought that it was really odd and at first I thought Jeff had programed it in the distortion pedal.  So, I asked Jeff if the chirping was part of the guitar noise.  And he said “no”.  Outside my front window is a bird feeder, I went to the window and sitting on the ground was a very red Cardinal.  He was chirping up a storm.  Melanie came up to the window and the bird flew away. 

Later on, Jeff and Luke still jamin.  The little Cardinal was right back by the feeder just a chirpin up a storm.  It was so awesome.

That little bird sat there for some time, bobbing it head up and down to the rhythm of the music and chirping like no other.  I never realized a bird loved “Smoke on the Water”  or the tune to a Ventures song.  It was really awesome to see.  I am hoping that Jeff will play again and I can get some video footage of the small bird rock-in out. 

I have been really proud of Luke,  The purple guitar that is shaped  like a lightening bolt is Luke’s new guitar.  He saved up his money and bought it himself.  He just bought himself a 50 preset distorter, Jeff has had more fun with it than Luke has.  Funny.   It amazes me that the male Cardinal is the most beautiful, he is so red.  God is so creative when it come to the animal kingdom.  Like as a wife, women I submit to my husband and he is the head of the house.  In the merkatt world the female is the dominate leader and all the other Merkatts obey her.  It is so interesting to me to see this.  It does not cause me to be disobedient, but almost intrigued.  God knows why, and that is all that matters.  Have a great day.

My New Page

I would love to share with you my new page.  It is called God’s Goal, I am not going to tell you what it is about.  I want to share it with you.  I hope that you enjoy it and that God uses it to touch your heart.  I love all of you and I will update it every week.  I have also wanted to tell you about this young man, who visited my blog not too long ago.  His name is Chris Schellenberg.  He just put out a cd of all of this music that he wrote.  If you go to this site, www.chrisschellenberg.com you can listen to the songs on the cd.  He is a talented young man.  God is so using this man to further His kingdom.  Check out this site.  Love, Tanya